Down the Drain

October 23, 2023
Actor and model Fox debuts with an unvarnished account of her tumultuous childhood, struggles with drug use, complicated friendships, and volatile romances. Beginning with her move, at age six, from Italy to New York City—where she and her family had been homeless for a brief period when Fox was a toddler—Fox chronicles her rise, fall, and resurgence in Manhattan’s downtown milieu. Along the way, she recounts relationships with a series of violent men and the scars she weathered from a procession of best friends with whom she fell out. Key episodes include a torrid affair with a young drug dealer from the Bronx, a hot-and-cold romance with a softhearted sugar daddy, a cleansing stint in Louisiana, and the birth of Fox’s son in 2021. Throughout, Fox discusses heavy subject matter, including her early experiences with heroin and her teenage stint as a dominatrix, in blunt terms (“As I stand there, completely naked with my legs apart and wrists tied up and hooked to the ceiling, I can’t escape my reflection. I can see myself from every angle... Then the most forbidden thought of all crosses my mind: What if my parents saw me like this? Cringe”), which works both to the book’s advantage and to its detriment: it lends the proceedings an air of intimacy, but prevents Fox from varying her emotional register. Her present-tense narration can feel like a shortcut to immediacy, though it’s an effective one. Less effective is her reliance on clichés (“My hero turned out to be nothing more than just another flawed human being”). Though Fox’s recollections feel somewhat undigested, their gossipy appeal is difficult to deny.